Poems.

motivated by Xanadu.
and Ozymandius.

The Spider.

Behold the trap.
The gilded web, the labyrinth of love and wealth that inching forward.
Dollar by dollar, Kiss by kiss,
minute by minute and slowly eked the time
now day by day rushing by
Each trophy on its pedestal
Some still, some dead, some inching to the door.

You stop and hold your breath, silent,
lest the other travelers might also sense the prize.
Relax, safe breath ever so slowly
and surprise, you win again.
What will it be?
A trip abroad, a child, a new car, a lover wild
Some still, some weeping, covered in shame, some broken fragments on the floor.

Yet on you move, you cannot stop
Your feet move without motivation.
You sense the swords
You see their eyes at the corner of your eyes
The trip ropes and the loosened tiles.
One last step, The final prize
Is yours.

Some weep some cry it seems forever
some STRUGGLE TO ESCAPE

Down your path the Spider steps to add you to his larder.
In his dreams he knows his steps
are moved by machinations
He holds his breath, silent, sighs and reaches for his prize,
To add it to its station

A new post at last

This is a funny way to start but this chapter begins here and may not go on to long though I intend to live forever.
Things change in life, old certainties fade.
New rough ideas take hold and the world stays the same around you but you become a different person.
Or vice versa.
The surface between internalization and externalization plus whether forces are pushing in or out is an ever changing constant.
The last 2 years have been as challenging as anyone could want them to be and one keeps learning about human nature.
One also learns that ones attitudes are pressed, squashed and directed by forces outside our control.
Also that no matter how strong one makes one mind the inbuilt game limitations prevent a winning strategy by sheer persistence alone.
One grows tired and more so as one progresses in life.
Nonetheless no pain no gain and pain only comes by applying oneself.
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I have a number of goals which if I had leisure and time I would slowly accomplish.
Not so now.
Goals are to be merged, manipulated and worked on in short segments with constant repetition, where possible.
Once achieved they will be listed and chucked into a vast repository unlikely to be retouched